To A Point:

It has come to a point

That air and food don't exist

      Anymore...

It has come to a point

That this pain inside is really

     Killing me...

It has come to a point

That life has no more meaning

      Without you...

It has come to a point

That loving and missing you pierces

      The heart...

It has come to a point

Where I don't want to breathe

     Anymore...

It has com e to a point

That this outfit can be worn for

     Five more days...

It has come to a point

That jokes aren't funny as they

     Use to be...

It has come to a point

That your love means everything

     To me...

It has come to a point

That my eyes won't run out of

     Tears...

It has come to a point

That wishing on a star won't make dreams

     Come true...

It has come to a point

That I don't want to do anything but

     Walk...

It has come to a point

That my eyes won't see

     Anymore...

It has come to a point

That without you, there is no

     Happiness...

It has come to a point

That I never want to hurt you

     Ever again...

It has come to a point

That for you to be happy, to not worry or stress about me, to not know to trust me or not, that I should leave your life and never be completed

     Again...

Flower's Story

I wasn't born yesterday

In fact, I've been around for years

So I know how things work around here

I know that water is my food

When I'm hungry, I'll drink

You are the sun,

And helped me grow beautiful this summer

In fact I enjoyed it too much

I forgot to drink and began to welt

Ignoring your rays

When I finally began to drink again

Winter decided to come early

And I couldn't see you anymore

You were gone.

Now I must shrivel up and pack my bags

For winter has me now

Cold and desolate 

What's to live for anymore without the sun?

September-2005 - JM

Why Another Day to Breathe

When the rain begins to pour,

My eyes begin to weep.

I just want to curl in a ball

And fall fast asleep.

Don't want to dream

Don't want to think,

Just wanna grab a bottle

And continue to drink.

Never thought it would be 

So hard to live each day,

Knowing all of this

I need to find my way.

I take another sip

Engulfing every drop

Taking me elsewhere

I don't want to stop.

June-2006 - JM

Inside

Bottled up inside are the words I never said,

The feelings that I hid, the lines you never read.

You can see it in my eyes, read it on my face;

Trapped inside are lies of the past I cannot replace.

With memories that linger -- won't seem to go away,

Why can't I be happier? Today's a brand new day.

Yesterday's are over, even though the hurting is not, 

Nothing lasts forever, I must cherish what I've got. 

Don't take my love for granted, for soon it will be gone --

All you ever wanted of the love you thought you'd won.

The hurt I'm feeling now won't disappear overnight,

But someway, somehow, everything will turn out all right.

No more wishing for the past, it wasn't meant to be,

It didn't seem to last, so I have to set him free.

March-2004 - JM

Day After Day, Time After Time

Tight, crampt, neck in pain,

Not enough space, not enough air;

I'm losing my faith in the existence of help.

I don't know how much longer I can bare.

Suddenly, a crack of light finds its way to me,

Only I found an emotionless face;

Not pleased to see her here,

But happy to get out of that space.

Thought she loved me, thought she cared,

Not knowing what she really thought;

Stood up in my spot, waiting for more pain,

Knowing her now, I should have fought.

Closing my eyes tight, holding my breath.

If only I could show her how painful this is;

With her not caring for me, no food, no clothing, 

I'm sure if I ran away, I wouldn't be missed.

After she is done with hurting me at that moment

Back in the back under the bed, THIS ISN'T FAIR!

Tight, crampt, neck in pain,

Not enough space, not enough air.

1996 - JM